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IRELAND AFTER THOUGHTS
So my adventure ends. I'm still not
sure what, exactly, I am to think of Ireland. When I first went to England, I expected
medieval castles, ancient churches, old coach inns, red phone booths and mystical
Neolithic stones. I found all that. When I first went to Scotland, I anticipated
stone cottages, heather and highlands, kilts and sheepdogs and isolated lochs
where sheep grazed next to tumbling, tea-colored streams. I found that, too.
But after returning to Ireland a second time ... I don't know what I was looking for. My great-great grandparents immigrated to America about ten years before the Famine. Everyone to whom I mentioned their surname - Barry - immediately said," Oh, yes, they're from County Cork." But I don't know where in Cork, what village or parish or town, or if they were Catholic or Protestant or what. Did they leave to seek greater religious freedoms in America, or did some other compulsion drive them to risk all and abandon everything they'd ever known?
But after returning to Ireland a second time ... I don't know what I was looking for. My great-great grandparents immigrated to America about ten years before the Famine. Everyone to whom I mentioned their surname - Barry - immediately said," Oh, yes, they're from County Cork." But I don't know where in Cork, what village or parish or town, or if they were Catholic or Protestant or what. Did they leave to seek greater religious freedoms in America, or did some other compulsion drive them to risk all and abandon everything they'd ever known?
Of course, there is still that idealistic
vision of green Irish hills crisscrossed with stone walls, of musical pubs and
old men on bicycles and whitewashed cottages crowned in thatched roofs standing
along crooked little lanes. Last year, my first full glimpse of "the auld
sod" turned unexpectedly emotional when I stood on the Hill of Tara and
beheld the green, sunlit expanse of Ireland spreading for miles at my feet.
"Mine...," my heart sighed. But as soon as we started driving towards
Galloway ... what the hell? Where were my thatch-roofed cottages? Where were my
quaint little farms? And why were all those big, ugly modern houses taking their
place? I suspect a hazy wish to connect with my Barry roots, or at least somehow
glimpse the Ireland of my forebears' time, colored my expectations and not
finding that left me feeling a little hollow.
But in reality, I have no way to
know if my great-great grandparents left with sighs of regret or tears of joy. When
reading the history of Ireland, it can appear that often what seems like the
simplest times were actually the most turbulent, with sectarian and religious
divisions played out on a violent stage. The stereotypical view of Ireland
wants to freeze her in amber, in a vision of romantic poverty that may have
never really existed.
On one hand a person could think
Ireland doesn't really value its more distant past. How else to explain ancient
abbeys where locals have been digging up the floors as a graveyard for
generations? Or a forgotten Norman castle among whose ruins modern houses
squat, its only purpose now to limit access to a light house that takes all the
tourist glory. But if one were to take the builders to task, perhaps they'd just
be baffled, saying, "Well, why shouldn't we? Everything is right where
it's stood, we just made better use of the place."
In another light, it could seem that
a cosmic ax clove Ireland's history between the Famine and everything before
that, and another cleaved time between the Rising of 1916 and the remainder of
the 20th century. Perhaps Ireland is so layered in history, vigorous
and dynamic and often still-green, that it's never had the luxury of wallowing
in nostalgia. If an Irishman sings of heroes or battles, you have to listen
close to discern if he's singing about something that happened in 1916, 1816 or
three hundred years ago. The past is alive in Ireland's mind, a nationalism that
builds its own myth and has little need of ruined old castles or haunted abbeys
to keep those tales alive.
Which leaves us, the lost great-grandchildren
of Ireland, possibly a little out of luck if we're looking for a stone to touch
or a hill to climb and claim as our birthright. But maybe that's the point.
Maybe our task is to embrace all of Ireland, with its convoluted history and mosaics
of struggle and rebirth, and heroes who may also be villains, depending on the song.
Ireland is a complicated place with a
complicated history and a complicated people, a land that reinvents itself
every generation or so. I'm still a little disappointed at the scarcity of
thatch-roofed cottages ... but I've gained a new appreciation for just how well
the Irish have managed to proliferate and prosper in almost every corner of the
globe. There's the old joke that God invented whiskey so the Irish wouldn't
take over the world. But if you look close enough, perhaps they already have. And
I've fallen a little in love with rural southern Ireland. :)
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